*yawn*

tired.

I’ve had enough of gaming for a while, comes and goes i guess.

And thusly i’ve been focusing more on the guitar lately, hooray for that! I changed the bezel for the EMG81 in my Kelly, from a flat to a angled one, and i don’t regret that.. It never dawned to me before that i should have it leveled and 100% paralell with the strings. Now i did, and it makes a world of a difference. Pushed the pickup as far up as physically possible, and it sounds just great! Working on my alternate picking in scalework, its starting to come more natural, and i curse myself for not starting this way. I never knew though, its fun to learn, but when you’re used to playing faster its hard to not default back to economy picking to just rip.

Not much else to say..

Oh right, PETA pissed themselves and drooled all over some form of cooking game lately, and made a parody of it on their page. Apparently killing stuff and eating it is really bad. I wrote them a mail about the game, applauding them on it, and telling them how much i liked the idea and the idea of having turkey for dinner, and then telling them how i bought one, etc. I hope they get trolled and respond to me so i can have a little shitstorm with them. They need to pull their head out of their fucking asses.

I will hereby eat as much meat as i can, preferably several different species just to piss them off. Fucking hell.

rage

Blargh

And lots of it.

I feel like an epic failiure, as a matter of fact. Theres so much i should do, i need to do, but for some unknown reason, i’m just not able.. Whilst i had so many ideas before, i feel empty, and everything is just, vague.

Also i can’t get myself to start anything big, because of my latest letter of joy from the Airforce, ordering me into 1 years service from the 9th of march. I’m sure its gonna be SOOOO fun! I feel like i’m rotting away and i can’t do anything about it. I try, god knows, i try. Thing is, it’s spun up to a point where i’m not sure what i’m dealing with, and there are times where i find myself wondering if whats happening is my own mental demise, that is, if i’m going insane.

But as Vintersorg once said, or sung, “Because thinking of thinking, evolves your thinking”, i wonder if i actually can grow insane AND be aware of it, since obviously i’m perfectly aware of it, inwhich it cancels out the theory(???). SNORE.

Anyways, i keep jewing around in games, trying MMORPG’s but quickly giving up on them because i feel lonely, either the persons i play with are too far away(read, america/canada or any other parts of hte world NOT situated close to me), or i just cant get used to the gameplay.. I liked that one.. Perfect world, but it felt so lonely. Kinda sucks that i’m shy, even inside a game. Fucked up!

So i fly alone in the depths of space, in Eve online.. Slowly gaining foothold as a mission runner and gaining.. eh.. stuff..

Playing Fallout 3 too, no mmorpg(YAY) but, rpg nonetheless, and massive fun.

I find myself playing less and less guitar, frustration of bad equipment.

Meh

Memories from the past

So i was flailing in Melhus, and by flailing, i mean boring my head into a guitar magazine while blasting my ears with Devin Townsends wonderful tunes, when i get a TEXTMESSAGE from none other than Christina, a girl i havent properly talked to for a good 3 years now(a pity, because we were really close friends back then)! Apparently she saw me, nozzling the magazine(not really, but pretty close), and soon she flailed out of nowhere(or came from a general direction atleast)! We ended up talking a lot, and it felt really good talking to her again, i can safely say i’ve missed talking to her, ’cause it felt so natural and great(as compared to the constipated forced chatter that other assholes procure)! I sure hope i get more chances to talk to her again!

I also just “finished” a song, not really, but i came pretty fucking far, concidering i started writing it yesterday, instead of recording.. It’s come pretty far, but it’s really weird.. It started out sounding melancholic yesterday.. And whne i came home today, soon it turned into the most happy fucking shit ive ever spewed out! Haha! I love it though, it’s melodic and nice.. Im planning to change some parts that don’t fit in too well, and adding more melodies, but only if it fits with how i want it to sound in my head(hard to explain this..), i’m not forcing music.

Figure i should talk to people on monday, about the new work. I wanna get this shit going as fast as possible, i’m losing money here!

It’s good being happy again, haven’t felt this good for godknows how long, and its a wonderful feeling!

I recommend being happy, cast away your emo shells brethren, ’cause alas, it is crused with doom. DOOM OF PAIN. Or something in those lines, either way; Tally ho!

Cleaning

Ended up cleaning the blog(fuck that word, i shall hereby refer to it as WORD CONTAINER(in caps.)), and also updating its looks so it looks all spiffy-like. Gonna try to post more often, and clean up the old ones that are just gunk.

Signing off for the evening.

P.s: read this blog more often, you lurking fuck. Also post a goddamned comment, i need to feel looooved

Morwar

I quit the job, and im gonna get a new one really soon. With the money i get, im gonna take the lisence, yaay.

Nothing more of interest is happening..

I’ve been playing a lot of games lately, compared to a few months ago.. Some of the titles include:

• Crysis
• Crysis Warhead
• S.T.A.L.K.E.R. Clear Sky
• ARMA: Armed Assault
• Command & Conquer Decade(tried most, played most of the modern ones to be honest)
• Rise of Nations
• Garry’s Mod

And i’ve preordered Fallout 3 and Far Cry 2..

I’ve become the hugest gamer haha, but fuck, its so fun!

I can’t say ive progressed much musically, but the cable inhibment and other stuff still provides too big of a challenge.. I’m gonna try to record for a song named “redshift” soon, like, in a few minutes, but i might end up making a demo for myself instead of a serious recording, due to lack of practice.. Guitar is something thats extremely fun, however, i feel i have too many problems with my technique, and it really takes away the fun.. I should get a teacher or something, get back into shape, haha

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU-

Holy fucking shit, i realized how deep shit im currently wallowing in. I missed my appointment with the doctor, so im gonna have to pay for him sitting on his ass doing nothing, probably gonna have to fork out a good $60 for that one, and then theres all the fucking shit i need for my band/music. Amp, 2 guitars, effects, you name it. That and several other shit i need to buy aswell, theres no end to it. Also i MIGHT have told a lie to work, which is gonna end up in a shitstorm, i most likely wont get fired or anything(obviously), but i half wish i did, cause i desperately need to get some fucking help from the govt to get out of here. I have no well paying job, so i cant support myself, but i live so fucking far in the blasted woods that bus travel rules out virtually all jobs, and without job, i cant get a drivers lisence to get there early either, because that costs a whopping fucking $4000 or something too.

My whole family gives me so much “support” ofcourse. Consisting mainly of making me feel like shit, but i guess theyve got nothing else to do. Thank fuck that i have friends, or else i’d become a nutjob. Pretty close to it at the moment, regardless.

On a lighter note, i’ve started writing my own stuff, or well.. started long ago, but ive started collecting it and continuing it, its going to be a EP or a full album. It’s pretty calm so far, and im probably gonna keep it that way, as to not sound like a schizophrenic fucktard. I really lust for making a RAGE album though. We’ll see what happens.

Posting to-

remind myself that i’m a lazy fuck. No, really, the delays of the album have been unfortunate, injuries and lack of practice are among some things, equipment failiure, and as of the now, i can’t find my XLR-XLR Cable, it’s been missing since i got my new computer, i remember testing it shortly after arival with vocals, delays and reverb and whatnot. It was fun, but i misplaced the cable i think, and now i can’t find it AT ALL. Weird, since my room is clean, so it shouldn’t have many hiding spots..

Regardless; Biggest issue i guess, is that the song that we’re recording now, “Rejoice of Winter”, is a song that i don’t actually know by heart, or well i do, but i can’t play it. “Why?”, you ask. Answer is a simple one, and a complex one, in a way.

You see, when i write music, i don’t always do it the traditional way, i use any means necessary to get my ideas out of my head. My music, isn’t a collection of the riffs and scales that i know on the guitar, quite the controary. I often write music, that i have never even played anything close to, on the guitar. Such being the case at hand. I just can’t play it that way, yet. Its possible, no doubt in my mind, but its several new chords for me, in a row, so switching from one to another flawlessly, is proving to be more of a challenge than i originally anticipated.. Much to the irritation of poor t0(bassist, ofcourse), which have already recorded bass and, arranged synths, drums, and whatnot.. I’m practicing it as often as i can, and i’m improving, but i don’t want to half-ass this album. I half-assed the first version of Light(yes, there will be a new version, im not satisfied), and its been gnawing my mind in and out, all the time..

Regardless, things ARE happening, just not at the rate which you’d suspect..

This album WILL be done, ofcourse, and it will be the first, in many many albums..

Take care, all of the 0 people who read this blog.

HI,MYNAME,IS,SLOW

Haha..

I update slower than, something witty and slow

I keep writing shit for the band, though i sometimes hear resemblence to other music that i listen to.. im not sure what to do with it, so far ive been deleting what sounds like other bands.. but i dont know how long i can keep doing that haha.. I still dont want to copy anyone, its a bad feeling.. Lyrics are being written, but my voice is so lame. Bleugh..

we have a myspace now btw: www.myspace.com/lambdacdm

only one track up at the moment

still havent recorded the album

Rape song

HUUNHGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

I update so SLOWLY, cause i forget things. Including this blog.

Whatever, so i bought Eve Online, and i got me a Battlecruiser today, FEROX. I pimped it with teh coolest turrets and blasters and launchers around, and other various dingylings. Win at it.

I also got Strapping Young Lad – 1994-2006 Chaos Years the other day. Sad thing it was, it was great music, ofcourse, and the dvd was not a disappointment(though ive seen the live before). It was sad, watching the Almost Again video, cause it was then when it really hit me that, SYL is done, there will be no more Strapping Young Lad.. It was a sad moment, but also epic, i think they did everything great, and i wish them all the greatest in the future.

NO serious updates for the band, except i’m ordering a guitar when i get my payment, hopefully i will get Revalver MKIII too, when it comes out. It will be used on Relic, the first album. I’ve been playing with the demo, and i can say that i really like what i hear! Really beats micing(as that even the right word? i dont think so..) my amp myself. Tried that before and, very very muffled sound as i dont have any stands or anything. The amp isnt that bad, its a Crate GT3500H, not the one with the wave though. I run it into a different cab from crate, which is actually smaller in size, so the Amp kinda, sticks out on the sides haha.. I really have to crank it to make it sound remotely good, but its ok.. We should round up for a bandpractice soon.. Been a while now.. I think the 4X10 Marshall i borrow at Tô’s is better. Though lower in sound, but one has the volumeknob for that, no?

Cheers

Loddetinn

Gnarrrhgl, i’m sort of bored. I recorded a cover of Strapping Young Lad’s “All Hail The New Flesh” yesterday, but i mastered it so loud that if i convert it to mp3. it overdrives and breaks up. Pity!

I got offered a spot in a local band some days ago, but said band demanded i stopped doing everything i did (i.e, LCDM and my own projects) in order to “focus 100%” on their shitty band.

No way.

Oh well, enjoying some eggs for breakfast and doing nothing at the moment, life is semi-good, lets see how long it lasts. The goodness that is