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Holy fucking shit, i realized how deep shit im currently wallowing in. I missed my appointment with the doctor, so im gonna have to pay for him sitting on his ass doing nothing, probably gonna have to fork out a good $60 for that one, and then theres all the fucking shit i need for my band/music. Amp, 2 guitars, effects, you name it. That and several other shit i need to buy aswell, theres no end to it. Also i MIGHT have told a lie to work, which is gonna end up in a shitstorm, i most likely wont get fired or anything(obviously), but i half wish i did, cause i desperately need to get some fucking help from the govt to get out of here. I have no well paying job, so i cant support myself, but i live so fucking far in the blasted woods that bus travel rules out virtually all jobs, and without job, i cant get a drivers lisence to get there early either, because that costs a whopping fucking $4000 or something too.

My whole family gives me so much “support” ofcourse. Consisting mainly of making me feel like shit, but i guess theyve got nothing else to do. Thank fuck that i have friends, or else i’d become a nutjob. Pretty close to it at the moment, regardless.

On a lighter note, i’ve started writing my own stuff, or well.. started long ago, but ive started collecting it and continuing it, its going to be a EP or a full album. It’s pretty calm so far, and im probably gonna keep it that way, as to not sound like a schizophrenic fucktard. I really lust for making a RAGE album though. We’ll see what happens.

~ by Reion on 9 October, 2008.